It had been a summer romance I hadn't wanted to end with the summer...

...but in the end she didn't agree with me.

I woke up this afternoon from a nap feeling sad because of a dream.

She was a friend in college: kind, warm, loving; a big girl in all the best ways, especially her heart. We'd spent a lot of time together but never gotten involved, mostly from lack of interest on her part, partly from lack of communication on mine.

And I dreamed that we were a couple, that summer, which seemed plausible in the dream at least.

I felt she'd been neglectful, somehow, and--in the dream--I'd retaliated by giving her what I thought was a corresponding level of neglect. Unfortunately for me, for us, she'd then decided that the end of the summer would be a good time for the end of the relationship. And I was despondent.

I hadn't spoken to her in a good twenty years. And probably hadn't thought of her in ten. And yet.

Waking, I thought, what a silly way for me to behave. But not an inaccurate depiction of how I would have behaved, if it had all happened then.

And I'm left with the image of her, sleeping turned away from me in the bed, as I got up to walk away.

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A friend made a (locked) post about "Shaved meat on bread with veggies, done lots of ways.", which reminded me I have a post overdue about a place on Dongzhimen Inner St., Beijing, specializing in donkey. One of the ways they serve it is diced up with green peppers inside a toasted flatbread. Delicious.

Also inexpensive, as the going rate around town for this is RMB 4, or just over 60 cents US. Finally, when I asked the guy how late they were open he said, "Late. I'm usually here until morning."

Tasty, cheap, and open really late. Can't go far wrong there, right?

But I'll post about it when I find my notes.

(I found a couple of posts from other people with photos of the food from other places, but nothing about the specific restaurant where I ate. http://www.beijingboyce.com/2009/05/22/street-eats-donkey-burgers-in-bray-jing/ and http://chinablog.se/?p=197)