Why did you abandon the mainstream?

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In many ways I was never accepted by the mainstream. By virtue of the combination of my race and upbringing, I was always going to be the "other". So in contrast to many of my friends, who appear to have consciously chose the subculture, I ended up here because integrating into the mainstream was problematic.

And there are many mainstream assumptions which I think are completely fucked-up. That tends to reinforce my decision. Not that the particular social niche I find myself in is lacking in fucked-up assumptions, but perhaps there aren't as many, or at least there are fewer which impact me directly.

I'm still thinking about this.

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[amelia-g.livejournal.com]

Just seeking a sense of meaning, where I truly belong, a home, a proper family/community/social network in the original sense of the phrase. I'm not sure that, at least in the US, anyone has a clue what really constitutes mainstream today. The man in the gray flannel suit has been gone a long while. Does someone choose to be "different", choose to be gay, etc.? Or is it a reality someone can suppress or embrace? Sometimes I think I took the road less traveled and made all the best choices for myself and sometimes I remind myself that it is not too late to pick up some more school, join a country club, etc.